I see a change in my life.
It’s not happening fast but happening at last.
Why am I so scared to be happy?
I think it’s because if I ever learn to become happy the next day I will drop dead.
Like I am not meant to be happy because I have been so sad for so long.
I don’t know any other way of life.
I'm scared.
I know most of you may not understand what I mean but it’s such a weird, strange, horrible, and sad feeling deep down.
